29 Jun 2011
Posted by Miss Kissy 
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Dear Kissy:
Sooo from the beginning….i thought god answered my prayers whn I met my dream guy…i was a single parent of two,n ths guy came in n swept us off of our feet….he treatd me like a queen,young in age,but very mature by heart…long story short,we fell deeply n luv,finances were right,everythng was right for us,so we got engaged n decided to hv a child…..i got pregnant n heres where all hell broke loose….
i kept levn him bcz he startd gtn caught up in th streets,now mind u,i never down anyone for doing,what they hv to do to provide for family,n I accepted his hustle bcz thngs got a lil ruff with his job….once he started gtn shot at,robbed n muggd by police,i gave him an ultimatum…either us,or th streets…he promised to neva do it again,but lied n stil did it…..everytime he lied,i kpt levn n takin him bk,seekin th company of other men bcz I was unhappy until I left…..n “he” neva came bk….i was alone with a complicated pregnancy,i fought to kp my bby inside of me,i moved home with my mom n I was in my deepest state of depression….i needed him more thn anythng,i wsnt redy to deal with this alone….
.i wd call,text,try to gt him bk,he brushed me off n treated me like scum under hs shoes….i found out his reason…he found sum1 else….he hurt me so bad….we were on n off with our emotions,we tried getting back,but just couldnt do it….everytime he wanted to make up,i brushed him off…i feel like I pushd,hm into another womans arms….only diff was,she wasnt a woman at all….he ended up findn a rebound,19yo lesbian,who spoiled him rotten,he claimed he ddnt luv her,he ws jus using her until…..she ended up pregnant…so here it is…i hv a belly n,so does she….we hvnt even bn apart for three months,hell our engagemnt was stil fresh…..my heart was destroyed….six months later,im still depressd ova it,they r stil togthr,n I am lonely raising a third child alone again….ths hurts more thn anythng….
i hv so much hatred n my heart,so much anger towards hm tht it hurts,i treat him bad whn I c or talk to him bcz I could neva find it in my heart to forgv….i pray n ask for forgvness everyday,n I still hate him…but im stil in luv with him..??? Everyday I look at my new bby,i become so dwn,tht I jus,breakdwn n tears bcz I feel like its my fault mommy n,daddy arent togthr….ths hurts bad!! Whn eva we do hv a,decent convo,he talks,abt how he still thnk abt us,n how thngs shudnt b how they are,n I brush him off,again,bcz I dont,wan hear it….i sed to him,if u really wanted us,to b,togthr again,nuthn shud hv,stopd u,nothing….his response,it was alredy too late for me to hurt any1,we found out,she was pregnant!……
im still hurting…idk wht to do,im tryn so hard to b nice,its so hard…..we always fuss via text,its gotten so bad,we dont do the phone anymore,but in person,we laff,we play n joke aroun,even becm affectionate a bit,u wd never know we werent togther…..its a luv hate thng….i feel like I need to b selfish n kp my child away,but I cant….just th thought of,his new “girl” friend,even bein aroun my new bby,mks me angry….simply because shes immature n tried,startn,trouble with me….i gave him,his first lil girl….n shes due to gv him,his second lil girl in october…..im confused…idk wht to do or how to feel,my,emotions are up n dwn…i dnt,want to continue hating him,but its,hard,im really trying….
God shud at least gv me,a gold sticker for trying…..im bitter towards other men bcz I dnt wan anyone else but him,i still break dwn frm time to time,n I hv everythng goin good,for me….now his life is really a living hell bcz its all catching up to him….hes really miserable,but she stays by his side…im jealous,im miserable,im lonely,i luv him,n I hate him….im just confused….im really confused……(sorry if this is,all over the place,im doing,this,from my phone)
Signed
His First
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25 Comments
I agree with Kissy, at this point what you need to do is focus on taking care of your children and improving your life in every way possible. It is going to be difficult at first; however this is something that you are going to have to do. Considering all of the things that have happened in this relationship, just thank God that he was able to remove you from this situation. Let your child’s father stay exactly where he is, you are better off with him not being there, especially if he is going to be dishonest (you don’t deserve that). Just remember that at this time this is your "current reality" and this in no way shape or form is going to determine how the rest of your life is going to be. As Kissy exclaimed worry about improving yourself, and let your emotions out. Nothing is wrong with that. Eventually, you will be able to just let it go…
Yes! Learn How To Spell & Dust Yourself Off & Try Again
Great advice Kissy! You told her something she already knew she had to do. She just cant bring herself to do it. Emotions will make a woman throw all her common sense out the nearest window.
Clinton she spells very well. It’s written in shorthand from a cell phone… Clearly in shorthand you can tell that she can spell very well….
I agree Malisa. Thanks
Where did she go wrong oooo u thought u own him haaa
Thats so sad to read.
Lol@Clinton. Umm, she messed up by getting preggers by a street hustler after having 2kids already. Why is she claiming he was young like she possess a seasoned mind? She put herself in drama sad to say.
Well sad to for ya, but what happened to the condom.? I am a man & I always use 1…most dont. If ya not ready for what can come out of havin unprotected sex either ALWAYS USE A GOOD CONDOM OR DONT HAVE SEX THIS GOES FOR MEN & WOMEN. Stop believing the BS guy can & will throw at u just for some cookies. Treat’em like a drug just say no….. I am celibate its not difficult… Dont worry about the other chic tend to ur child PUT HIM ON CHILD SUPPORT.. Dont keep ur child away from him not cool unless he is a bad example. Stay strong focus on ur baby period..with or without the father ur baby will have you. Pray pray pray on it real talk… =-)
the best advice not to worry bout no man they come and go hun. take care of ur baby bc at the end of the day your baby will be worth it. keep ya head up hun n good luck
ok this woman is the reason why i stop going to the club. Im tired of hearing all these sad songs these women dish out! she is telling her version of it no I dont feel sorry for you. I bet if any deceit human being seen this man we would say ok he did not have goals, no career, education. The way i know because he lives off the other girl and the reason he lives off a 19 yr old because thats all he is worth. you cant be worth much more if you dont see it.#GETIT2GETHER smh And kissy when you gonna have my babies since we the only 2 educated people left.
May the Gud Lord gve you strength and takecare of the bby will be very succesful. Every child cmes wid hs/hr blessngs, love the chld do nt brng up wid critism. Gud luck!
Its a sad story indeed…..but, she needs to grow up, be more “vigilant” of who she goes in relationship with and, FOR ONCE, learn from her mistakes…Don’t make babies if u ain’t intended to get married
its always hard 2 deal w/ someone u thought u knew inside + out. Then all of a sudden he changes into a stranger b4 ur eyes. And all cuz he was caught up in da streetz. God bless u girl. Stay up. U’ll make it!
BTW, this is shorthand type, i know how 2 spell…dadadada.
Just Another Sad Song… Cuz This Is Happening With Alot of Young Women. This Has To Be Very Painful, My Heart & Prayers Goes Out To These Young Ladies.
11 years ago I was feeling the same way. I know it sounds like forever ago but I remember feeling the same way u did. I would get sick 2 my stomach when I even thought about my son being around my ex's new gf. I was so angry, depressed, confused. I left him & then felt horrible 4 it. My advise 4u is first off its ok to be angry & depressed but make sure it doesnt consume u. I was so angry 4 so long that it ruined a parenting friendship that I could of had w/ his dad and make my sons life a lot easier. I was blinded by my own emotions & not thinking of what was most important & that was our son. It has been over 11 yrs & we just now I mean really just now within the last few months have spoke about how we r going 2 get along better 4 the sake of our son. U might ask why it took so long. It took so long cuz my emotions bk then caused me 2b mean 2 him as u stated u r & bitter.
cont. That just blew up & led 2 so many other fights & issues. I just tried 2 make his life hell. So he in turn would try 2 make my life hell & it was a cycle. I know it hurts I know u probably cry @ night, I did. I'm sure when u r being mean 2 him because u r hurt after u think why why did I say or do that. I wanted 2 keep my son from him 2 but that isn't fair or right to the baby. It isn't the babies fault we as parents couldn't make it work. As far as him playing w/ you & joking with u & it getting
flirty @ times. I say DONT fall 4 that. U were right when u said if he wanted to make it work he should have done whatever it took & that would mean NOT even chancing getting another girl pregnant. Him playing w/ ur emotions is just his way of keeping u around incase it doesn't work out w/ his other babies mom. Even if he was 2 leave her & go back 2 u guess what?? She is going 2 cause drama 4 the both of u ALL the time, cuz she will then be feeling the same way u r. It just isn't worth it. U & ur baby will b happier in the end if u just deal w/ your feelings & just move on & just establish a parenting friendship w/ him. Good luck & remember time really does heal.
Im not sure why the first part of my 3 part comment wasn't posted. It showed it had to be approved. Sorry.
Get an abortion if it’s not too late
Honestly I sincerely doubt that she’s going to forget about this man. She’s still caught up on giving him his first child which doesn’t mean jack. You know who my ex’s first child calls daddy, my first husband and there would be no husband if I didn’t take those rose colored glasses off we like to wear because we think having a baby means togetherness. What about the other 2′kids father? I’m sure there were lessons there, move on!
Condoms and birth control
Oh and um get you a 10 year IUD 3kids by yourself, in your mother’s house, safe to say unemployed is not productive. This is not the end of the world, this can make you stronger if you let it motivate you.
I tried an Ape! But she wants everything her way, an she hits too Hard, and don’t like it when I kick her family’s asses… But I’ve never had an human.
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